erm.. i tink its a berii berii nice song..

n tish ish 光陰的故事. it is a heartwarming n simple drama.. w a group of families living in a village.. it's nice n touchin to mii ba ahaha

rosebel . 2:14 PM ...................

i actually hab some symptoms of h1n1.. hope tt im healthy man ahahahah

cool (:

i watched the prestige in class today n i dun reali understand the movie (:

sometimes i wondered y m i sho blur n slow. n alot more flaws la ahahahaa

but i guess God hab His reason makin mii tish way. (:

rosebel . 11:11 PM ...................

mani times, i tends to feel weary easily. i noe tt's not what God wans mii to be. God wants mii to show more love n compassion fer others. God, pls give mii a heart of love and compassion manxzz. the world ish cruel, the world always interfere w the thingy tt i wan to do fer God. or isit tt it's my own heart desire. i care fer my own heart desire more den others. which ish reali reali bad. it's no difference from the past times where i haben got saved.


the bible says, love your neighbours as yourself.

it's a verse tt i've been trying hard to obey. human's thinking will be, when we show love to friends, we hope tt dey can appeciate and we hope to receive some rewards. if our efforts r not paid off, we give up. we feel tt it's not worth it. but, i guess the verse in the bible doesn't mean tish way.

God's meaning ish selfless love. ish doing something fer others, out of love. the true motive in the heart ish love for people, not expecting any rewards or appreciation. even if we r rejected, we still carry on loving. Jesus shows a very good example of it. ppl rejected Him, even crucified Him. He still love His people. n ish willing to go thru the painful crucify.. for us.. lyk actually He doesn't deserve it.. but it's all bcos of love........ He wishes to cleanse our sins......

Jesus's example of great love n endurance.. wil b the best motivation for mii...

i seriously pray, tt God will give mii more love n compassion.... cos i tink i seriously nid moreeeeee..

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i hab lyk an interesting experience to share la.. erm.. lyk ytd rite, i nvr go sch la cos abit diarrhoa in the morning haha den afternoon i go causeway to tak my plug ma.. cos i bought adaptor den the person forget give mii plug lol sho ytd i go tak lo.. den lyk when im takin the escalator to PCzone, i saw tish old man.. carry a big tv(as in wrap up one lor, haben open one) lyk he's walking w the tv.. lyk the tv looks quite heavy.. den i walk behind him ma.. cos i tot lyk somethin happen den i can help ma.. den i reach PCzone liao go tak plug lo.. den come out liao hor, i saw the old man again.. lyk he looks quite helpless ma.. den i was thinkin mayb God wans mii help him ma.. cos c him again.. den i go ask him nid help anot lo.. den he sae he dunno where COURTS ish ma.. den actually i aso dunno cos i dun hab sense of direction one, but the level 4 directory right in front of mii lor. den i go c, den realise COURTS at the level lor(level4), den the old man go walk n look for Courts, den i help him look after the tv, den the old man left, i saw one Courts lady walk past sia.. lyk i feel everythin berii coincident lo.. den the old man come back sae he noe where liao.. sho we carry the tv together n go Courts lor.. den after tt i left..

lyk i find it amazing la.. lyk i feel God lyk send mii to help the old man lor.. cos lyk everythin sho coincident.. i jus feel tt God ish reali great la ahahah ((:

rosebel . 9:22 AM ...................

hello....

i've been fasting fer abt a week(onli one meal la) n my pant ish getting lyk abit looser hahahahahaha sho skippin a meal can reali make u slimmer.. hahaha jenna says fasting mus b accompanied w prayers.. cos if not it'll onli b lyk dieting.. hahaha true true.. sho i tink i shld reali pray more.. cos prayers r powerful!!!!!

today durin the evening service.. while i was worshipping.. the word "CONFESS" keeps appearin in my mind.. ya.. confessing our sins.. i guess nobody in tish world ish sinless.. no better how godly u r.. im sure we stil sins.. it's when we reali confess to God tt we're sinners n truly repents.. tt's when He'll cleanse us.. n follow His words tt guide us to leading a righteous life..

mm.. i've heard alot today abt having a relationship w God during preaching.. my friends aso ask mii before.. wad does it mean by habing a relationship w God?

mm.. i tink..it's lyk when u reali accept Christ in ur heart, its like He's living inside u.. He's lyk ur own personal God.. while leading a righteous life, u may face alot of obstacles.. we'll suffer.. stumble n fall.. but as we talk to God, pray to Him, He'll respond to us.. thru His own ways.. when u accept Christ into ur heart, He lives within u, He noes it when u're sad, He knows it when u're happy, He knows it when u're suffering. He'll reveal Himself to u, tellin u He's there w u.. runnin tish journey w u.. it's lyk u can feel His presence.. thru mani amazing ways.. it's not onli u seeking n talking to Him.. He's responding to u as well.. sho it's a two-way thingy.. it's a relationship w Him.. it's lyk the day whereby im able to speak in tougues.. lyk perhaps it may sounds crazy.. mayb ppl may tink it's my own imagination.. or hab alot more doubts abt it.. but im the one who experience it.. i knows it best n noes wad's reali working on the inside of mii.. God ish reali my awesome n amazing God.. i noe my God ish listening to mii.. n i noe He's responding and loving mii thru mani mani ways..

when u've done smth wrong, perhaps u may receive punishments.. scoldings.. or smth else.. but God ish different. He's filled of love. He doesn't scold, He shows u love instead.. w a love sho overwhelming tt u'll reali breakdown n reali change ur way of thinking and living.. we love Him, cos He loves us first..

okies.. back to business.. fyp dateline ish approaching.. im reali reali weak in coding.. lyk reali weak.. n i noe i reali didnt help my team much.. solving codes all tish.. im aso not confident if my own codes r going to work.. but i reali hope we'll b able to work well n do all we can to love one another in the team.. we shall jiayou man i noe God will b helping. jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

somethin i wish to share.. it's from a website..

There is a saying, 'Love your friends and hate your enemies.' But I say: Love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way you will be acting as true sons of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust too. If you love only those who love you, what good is that? Even scoundrels do that much. If you are friendly only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even the heathen do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect. (TLB, Matthew 5:43-48)

i find thingy tt God taught us ish reali interesting.. lyk God reali tot us the thingy tt's totally diff from wad the world ish teaching us..

sho, remember to love ur enemies (:

rosebel . 9:14 PM ...................

mm..

sometimes.. i seems to hab a feeling tt the end's been coming soon.. lyk now.. alot of churches hab been reachin out to ppl for salvation.. it's jus my own thinking.. jus a feeling of mine. cos, when the end comes.. alot of thingy will happen.. to us too.. jus pray tt more ppl wil b saved.. cos when the end comes, it'll b too late le..

sera told mii smth.. i was sharing somethin w her i forget liao i tink its smth abt fasting ahahaha n she told mii, when we r weak, our spirit ish strong.. true true.. i realise its often when we're weak, we'll able to c a bigger picture of God n God wil reali reveal Himself to us.. it's when we endure to the end, we'll c Him.. tt's when we noe tt He's real.. n everythin ish worth it fer Him..

i've heard alot of ppl say before.. it's never easy being a christian.. in the world, there're alot of temptations.. n if we fall into tish world, we'll fall further away from God n we'll go back to our same old self again..

the reason we accept Chris, ish to confess our sins, sho as to repent n follow His words.. it's bcos we nid the Saviour to cleanse our sins..

God teaches us love, pure of heart, endurance, kindness, faithfulness n self-control.. but in the world, there ish materialistic, sins, condemnation.. being christians reali nids alot of self-control.. we cant do it by ourself..we nid the spirit n help from God..tt's y we nid the Saviour.. to guide us thru the right way to life.. so tt we'll never b the same again..

it's hard.. we'll stumble n fall.. but i noe, it'll all b worth it..

btw i've lyk discovered smth interesting.. cos tish few days my eyes lyk got red red den i wear specs..erm, last time, i reali used to tink tt wearin specs in the public ish reali lyk killing mii la cos last time im abit image-conscious.. haahah althou shiqi always sae i always wear the same pattern de clothes, but i was actually image-conscious one wo! haha den now i reali feel it's okie to wear specs lay.. lyk i reali feel tt its a big change in mii, lyk God taught mii tt wad ish impt ish not those looks or anythin.. it's actually wad comes within.. i wan God to change mii lyk from the within..

btw i tink the song, Tear Down The Walls ish lyk reali reali nice... we've sang it in church quite alot of times den tish few days i've finally found the song n im happy hahaha it's in my mixpod too if u interested can go listen yeah

rosebel . 10:39 PM ...................

i guess wad my friend once told mii ish rite.. i once asked my church fren, do u feel discouraged when u couldn't manage to preach God's words properly or ppl seems to hab doubt in u.. she said no.. as long as she noes tt the thingy she sae ish true n she conveyed her msg..

yup.. i now understand.. actually.. i tink i reali tried n push too hard.. to wish to make ppl feel the way i feel..

my responsibility ish to share the gospel.. n tell my friends tt there's a Saviour in tish world, Jesus.. who suffered for us to cleanse away our sins.. it's up to the people to choose if they wish to accept Him in their heart.. ya, true.. it shld b a choice..

i know God has a good plan for everyone.. but God also gave us a freedom of choice whether to accept Him and His plans..

i would b berii happy if my friends were to accept Christ. but i noe it shld b from the heart.. seeking for Him should b from the heart..

tired...... hahahah

rosebel . 9:16 PM ...................

on sunday at suntec convention centre, during worship,wendy brought mii to the front.. halfway thru the worship,i lost control of my words and ish able to speak in tongue uncontrollably.. tt was the first time i experience tt.. i noe tt it's a sign from God tellin mii tt He's there.. He knows i nid tt touch from Him.. i didnt reali ask fer it.. but God gave tt to mii..


ytd,while praying, i was able to speak in tongue too.. i feel tt it's reali a gift to mii from God.. i can sense His comfort..



i noe im not a perfect child of God.. i disappoint Him mani times.. but the Lord.. stil use His way to shower mii w His love.. to tell mii tt He's stil there fer mii.. n hasn't given up on mii.. He knows my heart.. tish love and feeling can reali b sho overwhelming..


cleanse mii from these hidden faults Lord, my Rock, my Redeemer...

You opened my eyes to your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love

rosebel . 8:26 AM ...................